Wow.

   When most people say they got news that will change their lives forever, it's a good thing...An engagement, a pregnancy, etc...Well, Monday we got news that will change our lives, and it's not exactly that good at all...Ryan's being discharged from the Air Force. The only good thing coming from this is us being back with our friends and family. We had a plan for ourselves, for our future, and this sure as hell wasn't it...Ryan was going to be able to retire from the military at age 37...We'd pick where we wanted to live, and we were going to build a house there...It would be amazing, because we'd pick out everything, and have enough money saved up to do it...We should've known that would never happen when he got Brooks as his supervisor last March...She did everything in her power to make Ryan's life hell, and to ruin his career...He finally got a new supervisor at the beginning of this year, and we took a big sigh of relief; 2010 would finally be our year...

   This year had been going much better already than last year had; Ryan got awards, got notes from the commander telling him how great he was, his supervisor gave him praise & supported him, he was getting treated better, and he was making real friends...We found out there was a meeting held by some of the higher ups to decide whether to let him stay in, or kick him out...The response was that everyone wanted him to stay...Ryan and his supervisor were told not to worry, and that it wouldn't be an issue again...And now here we are, a couple months later, and he's being force shaped out...Exactly what was promised not to happen...Apparently Ryan's supervisor AND the squadron commander are pretty bullshit about it...They were asked their opinions, and apparently neither of them mattered...His supervisor is also pissed, cause the vMPF is taking it's sweet time putting Ryan's checklist up so he can start outprocessing...We have less than 2 months to do everything, yet they take their time...That's super...

   Since getting the news, my head has been SO full of whys; Why us? Why didn't his wench of an old supervisor get in trouble, or kicked out herself? When will we catch a break? When will it be "our year"? What have we done to attract so much bad karma? What will we do about jobs? Will it be hard to find jobs? How will we ever afford to move out of my parents house & get our own place? How long will we have to stay with my parents? How are people going to think of us? What will happen to all of our military friends? There are many more whys that I've thought of, but I don't want to go on forever...There's just so many unknowns right now that it's terrifying...

   I know we're strong enough to make it through this...We're doing our best not to stress too much, and just trust that it'll work out in the end...It's just hard to do that right now...Our family & friends have been SO supportive of us...Well, those that matter & that have shown they give a shit what happens with us at least...It means so much to us to have that support from them, and us getting through this will be helped enormously by their continuning support in everything we do...We're truly blessed to have all of them in our lives, and I have no idea what we'd do without them...