Not being able to stop your thoughts sucks...Especially when they run all crazy at night when you're all alone...I wish I could turn off my mind & get some decent sleep...I want to snuggle my husband & have him scare the bad thoughts away...

/le sigh

Alrighty then...

   I suppose it's time for an update. Truth be told, I've wanted to update many times, but don't feel like dealing with the resulting drama from anyone that might read what I have to say on here...

   The last month/month & a half has been kind of rough...McDonald's has been screwing with Ryan's hours... Lately they've had him working day hours half the week & 3rd shift the other half, and it seems to be going well...32 hours a week is DEFINITELY better than 6-9 hours a week...He even put in to become a shift trainer, which is just 1 step below manager...I really hope he gets it, cause he works SO hard...I'm very proud of him :)

   As for me, work has been really stressful & has been running me down emotionally...Never have I had a problem being a temp at work...Honestly, I don't really think it's that big of a deal...However, a few weeks back, it was drilled into my head every single day how lame it was to be a temp, and how much more awesome being hired was...The conversations were ok at first, but soon became annoying to listen to every day, so I just really didn't pay much attention to them...I just sat there silently & dealt with it...Then one night Ryan asked me if I was ok because I had seemed upset...All I got out while I was folding clothes was, "You know, I've never really minded being a temp" before I broke down crying hysterically...Poor Ryan was so upset that I was so hurt...He held me & smoothed my hair, telling me it was going to be alright...He asked why I didn't say anything to anyone, and I told him I just didn't want to look like a bitch by asking people to stop talking about being hired & all that...I should just be happy for them & keep my mouth shut...He didn't agree, but that's what I did anyway...It's what I always do; keep to myself & just deal with any hurt feelings on my own...

   I've also been upset lately, because my very favorite uncle (I know that's horrible to say probably, but it's true) has been in the hospital for the past 2 1/2 weeks...They finally took him off life support at the end of this past week, and he was able to be up & eating cereal for breakfast today...I'm so relieved he's doing well...It's really been bothering me  that he was doing so poorly...They're hoping to send him home mid-week, and I really hope they can...

   Captain's been doing well...He's actually do for vaccines, so I need to get him a vet appointment...I'm switching his vet to Lucky Pet in Berwick, cause they're the best around, and also the cheapest...I really hope they'll give me something to knock Captain out (or damn close to it), cause he's been horrid at the vet ever since he woke up  without balls...Lol...Come to think of it, that's when he started not liking strangers, too... Anyway, I'm glad they give 3-year vaccines now, cause I can't imagine dealing with Captain at the vets more often than that, lol...He's just SO bad... The last vet made ME muzzle him, and honestly, I wasn't too keen on trying to do it myself...lol...

   Fall is my favorite time of year, but it has one major downfall; less hours of sunlight...It's REALLY messing up my nightly walks...I feel like I was seeing a lot of progress with my weight loss, and now we don't walk as much...Basically, if we're not done eating by 6:30pm - 6:45pm, we don't walk cause it's too dark...I COULD just walk on the treadmill, but it's not nearly as fun as walking outside & chatting with mum...Soon there won't be much choice though >.<

   I guess that's it for now...I'm starting to fall asleep...Too much applesauce making & running around doing errands I guess...

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So I totally suck & haven't written in here in a while...Oh well, I'm a pretty busy person. I was working a TON at Liberty until the other week...We're totally up to date on work, so there's no real need to work overtime...I don't mind working overtime honestly, cause it's good money, and I'm not above doing it...I'm also still working every other weekend at TCB...What can I say? I just like being ahead of my bills...Not going to hear me bitching about it...

Speaking of bitching, I've been noticing a lot of pet peeves I have lately...One is people who ALWAYS find something to complain about...It's like they're not happy unless there's something to bitch about...Must be pretty sucky to harp on things enough to be negative constantly...I also hate being fucking talked over & not allowed to get a word in during a conversation...What's the point of talking to someone if they just plan on talking at you the whole time? Worse still are people who ask you a question, and then very obviously don't care about the answer...It's like, "I can SEE you checking out of the conversation as soon as I open my mouth to reply, so don't make me waste my fucking breath"...If you don't give a shit about something, DON'T ASK ABOUT IT!!! People that always talk about themselves are also annoying...Ever think maybe people don't want you to interject yourself into every single conversation to be had?? I mean, I usually worry that I talk about myself too much, which usually leads to me just being quiet...I know it bothers me, so why would I do it to others??? Uggghhh...

We've come to a point in our lives where A LOT of the people we know are having kids...Nothing wrong with that; more power to them! However, I don't like it being rubbed in my face that we don't really want to have kids...It's OUR choice...If we change our minds, that's one thing, but we will NOT be having children to apease (sp?) others, or to fit in...We don't mind hanging out with people who have/are having kids, they're just not for us...So get the fuck over it...

Anywho, enough of the ranting...

Ryan started his new job in June...He works at the brand new (well, rebuilt) McDonald's in Dover...He's working 3rd shift & loving it!!! Most all of the people are cool & treat him well, and that's all I really care about...The only downfall to either of us really is just trying to find time to see each other...He had 2 days off in a row this week, and we totally loved it :D I felt sad last night when he went back to work;  I'd been so spoiled having so much time with him!

Super stoked to be back to my weight loss plan...Got totally behind when we house sat a few times the past couple months...Not walking for a week here & 2 weeks there sucked! Now I'm back to walking neary every day, and eating better still...I'm starting to feel more comfortable with myself, and it feels great :D I'm hoping I make great progress, and can wear a bikini in winter when Ryan & I go away in December...There's a heated outdoor pool, and I want to be able to rock a 2-piece suit when there's snow on the ground, lol...Keeping my fingers crossed!

I had the honor of being in my best friend's wedding last Saturday, and it was amazing! She looked gorgeous, the weather at the beach was pretty good (no rain!!!), and the reception was pretty fun...I thought I would hate my dress, but I ended up really loving it...I wish dad & Ryan could have made it, but they couldn't :( The whole thing made me really excited to plan our vow renewals in a few years...SO happy for Ree, and hope she has a lifetime of happiness ahead of her!!!

Well, I guess that's it for now...